Hi.

Welcome to my blog, Guiltless Gaia, where I intend to discuss my ongoing journey toward wellness.

Like many around the globe I’m in lockdown due to the COVID-19 pandemic and I find myself unable to continue ignoring my binging and my tendency to hide what and how much I’m eating.  Ignoring that stuff and yo-yo dieting has been my way of “managing” my eating disorder for years.

I’m furloughed, able to collect unemployment, and my employer has been generously paying for my health insurance. I’m privileged, and grateful!  Yet, privilege doesn’t exempt one from suffering from B.E.D.  Nor does it exempt me from feeling GUILTY that I overeat and binge when so many are dealing with hunger.

I feel like if I’m ever going to confront this and work toward recovery it is now.

GUILT and it’s companion, SHAME, live inside of me, twin antagonists, torturing me, making me insecure, unsure, and ultimately, hungry in a way food has never satisfied, can’t ever satisfy.

That’s where the “ guiltless” in the title comes from. Guiltless is a goal!  I think, quite possibly THE goal for me as I move forward.

My plan is to share myself journal style, and to link or mention any and all of the resources that help me along the way.

My hope is that something here will resonate and help even one other person.

💕